my dream date with my special someone

since i feel sad and depress this past few day...dont know the real reason why...maybe because im so bothered with and longging for something and same time having a hard time here in the office...

that's why, while in my desk i think of happy thoughts that i could remember or creating a magical situation with the someone special for i could enjoy my boring life and put some spice on it..so, i collect the pictures of places that i dream that i could visit someday with my special someone....

it comes to my mind to think of the best places here in the Philippines first, at least there's a possibility to come true since im here in the manila...

so my first destination is....

Palawan El Nido...dreaming that i sat with that chair with my special someone...dream date come true...and it will be more romantic if it will be on midnight with candle light...hahahahaha, originally uploaded by jack.

enjoying colorful butterflies around us...

colorful butterflies, originally uploaded by jack.

scuba diving together with my love and with the sea creatures...

under the sea adventure will be a great fun with my love one...hhahahahaha, originally uploaded by jack.

cave quest with your love one will be the most exciting part of the tour...

Palawan Tabon Cave,the feeling of security and protection when embracing your love one inside the cave...hhhmmmmm, originally uploaded by jack.

this only the part one of my exploring my happy thoughts....whatever this dream will come true or not, at least at this moment it makes me feels good and happy...it lessen my frustrations and my depression here in my cubicle...well maybe i need to do this often for me to feels good when i'm depressed and bored...hahahahaha... i appreciate the pictures and the places that i only saw in the net and hoping i could travel around the Philippines and around the world with my love one....and i can use this as my future reference if ever im going to have my honeymoon or a special date with someone...i will going to have a list of what im dreaming of...is this a great idea???? collecting my happy thoughts and if i'm sad and depress i just going to look at this then smile, imagining that im with my love while tasting the ecstasy of happiness and love with him at this places that i dreamed of....

my next destination is...Boracay!!!..inspired by Norman with his stories since he just came back from the honeymoon...wow!!!! how i wish i could also spend that precious moment with my better half...hay life!!!

*pictures are taken from http://www.lakbaypilipinas.com*

Love birds as sign

love birds in puerto fuego
Originally uploaded by Jack's Journey.

this picture taken last may..when i was with viper's company outing at puerto fuego in batangas..of course with my ex...everytime i see this picture i blame myself why they(the love bird in the pic) die...whaaaa...(huhuhuhu)
my ex and his officemate hunt that love birds then they put the 2 birds in the box because my ex wants it to be his pasalubong for his ate who have love birds as her pet...

naaawa nga ako sa love bird eh kasi nahihilo na siguro sa byahe at ska napapakiramdaman ko na mahina na sila kasi alang food and drink dun sa box... then habang nasa biyahe im praying on my mind na sana bigyan na ako ng sign ni Lord kung para ba kami talaga sa isa't isa medyo napapagod na kasi ako eh..then suddenly nakita ko yung box kung asan yung love birds then i check the love birds medyo nanghihina na... then i prayed Lord please give me a sign...kung mabuhay tong love bird hanggang makauwi kami it means kami talaga..but kung hindi mabuhay it means di talaga kami....so ako naman super alaga sa 2 birds binigyan ko ng bits ng biscuit...then when we got home sa bahay nila i check the two birds and i said to him ilabas mo na yung love birds bigay mo na sa ate mo...so he did...pinakain nya yung two birds..and medyo nakabuntong hininga na ako...hay!!!salamat naman at okay yung love bird..but the same time, at the back of my mind okay na ako...answered prayer na ako...

kinabukasan...out of the blue umagang umaga palang biglang sinabi sa akin ng ex..."namatay yung love bird =<"...sagot ko sa kanya..."what??bkit namatay??? ano ginawa ng ate mo??"...grabe nagulat ako...natutulala at naka tingin sa kawalan...mangiyak-ngiyak ako...so ibig sabihin di talaga kami para sa isa't isa tapos ang masakit pa dun nandamay pa ako ng buhay ng ibon...kakalungkot talaga pag naaalala ko yun naawawa ako sa love bird...

namatay yung love bird at my own expense...huhuhuhu... kasi naman eh bakit yun pa kasing hiningi kong sign eh..sa dami ng sign na binigay sa akin eh di pa ako naniwala..kailangan pang may magbuwis ng buhay para maniwala ako..pero at least malinaw na sa akin na di talaga kami para sa isat isa... and answere prayer ako..instant pa ang sagot...Thank God talaga!!!!

teased by uncle...

my usual saturday and sunday...i dont go out..just stay in the house for the whole day without touching the gate to go out...i have my food at home so i just cook for my meals...but sunday, i have to go to church... so that is the only time i go out by sunday night....i usually go for a church at evening...and sometimes i visited my sister...

I visited ate jane to help her for the birthday invitation of Edison(my first nephew!)....that's why i stayed late in their home..so my sister ask my uncle to accompany me to go home... so while driving my tito pong ask me...
t: jack, nasimba ka na ba???(smiling...and there is something in his smile)
j: yeah...nagsimba na ako!!!! bakit??
t: talaga nagsimba ka na(start laughing)
j: (now i get it what he means!!) oo nagsisimba naman talaga ako noh..pero ngayon di ako dyan nagsimba sa pinaglabanan sa sta.mesa church ako...ikaw talaga tito pong nanghuhuli ka lang di mo pa sabihin ng diretso...
t:matagal ko ng alam yun(meaning about my break up with my ex...)...ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataon na itanong sa iyo...siguro umiyak ka noh nung nagtxt ate mo ng makita na kasama yung girl sa simbahan..nasabi na sa akin ng ate mo toh...
j:hello...hindi ako umiyak noh!!!! di ko na nga lang pinansin ang txt ni ate jane noh....hintay ko nga na tumawag sya sa bahay after church pero di na tumawag and di na ako ulit nagtanong about dun kasi di na ako interesado...at ska si ate jane talaga di mapagkatiwalaan sabi ko sa kanya secret lang namin yun pati ikaw nalaman mo na...gggrrrr....si ate jane talaga sa susunod di na ako magsasabi sa kanya..
t:owwwwsssss.....talaga????di ka umiyak...hayaan mo na ate mo noh concern lang sya sa iyo...at ska ate mo naman yun eh...kaya hwag mo nalang sabihin na confront kita about dun....
j:di talaga ako umiyak noh!!! sarap ng buhay ko ngayon noh wala sya...at ska andyan naman mga officemates and friends ko na nakakasama ko sa gimik kaya madaling kalimutan....at ska parang di mo naman ako kilala tito pong...
t:buti naman lumalabas ka na ngayon....at least naranasan mo ng gumimik....at ska ngayon nalaman ko na ganyan nangyari sa iyo pihadong matatagalan ulit bago ka magka-bf o baka late ka na mag-asawa nyan mga 30++ na siguro...
j: sows....tito pong hwag naman ganyan....baka magdilang angel ka..di naman siguro at hwag naman sana umabot ako ng ganung edad...
t: kilala kita jack...ngayon naranasan mong masaktan lalo kang nagiging maingat at palaban...at least natuto ka ganyan talaga ang buhay...

hay.... that's my tito pong...my ever treasured uncle since i was young...sya ang pinaka-close kong tito at ninong na laging nag-advice sa akin... when i need him lagi lang sya andyan....tapos kapag kailangan ko ng driver laging andyan...i remember my first gimik or shall i say my first date...sya pa ang naghatid sa akin at the same time sya rin ang nagsundo sa akin...super bait na tito....sa kanya lang ako nakaka-pag open ng problems ko..at ska ang gaan ng feeling kapag si tito pong ang kausap ko kasi di ka nya papagalitan o huhusgahan sa ginawa mo but he will give you advice and comment para gumaan ang loob mo and to learn from the problems you encounter... i'm so happy and blessed to have a tito like him....

gimmick in malate

its been a plan that after Norman's wedding we are going to malate for a gimmick since we are already in manila area and malate is near at the intramuros where the wedding is held.... but since we are in a formal attire we need to go home first to change our outfit....akala ko magkakatamaran na buti nalang hindi....

since pam and i were together we agree to meet with Chris, Tupe and Gazelle at 1030pm at robinsons place...we go around nakpil st. at malate, then we end up to go to common ground club..but before we go to that place Chris tours us in the place where the gays and lesbians chill out...

at common ground club...first i thought we are not going to enjoy the place but after 15 minutes of staying in our seat and take our first drink Chris invited us to go to the dance floor...but wow!!! the dance floor is jam packed...you dont need to put an effort to dance since they are the one who can make you move in the dance floor...so because of that,... i try to joined them since no one will notice how lousy i am in dancing...hahahahahaha... so i just dance with Pam, Chris and Gazelle eventhough i dont know if am i really dancing...(hahahaha!!!)...but in a middle of enjoying what im doing someone whispered to me that he wants to dance with me....wow!!! bulag siguro toh noh...di nga ako marunong magsayaw noh..kulit ka din..(hahahahaha)...but i dont say that to him...i just try to be nice and say "sure! we could dance" then i thought he just want to meet Gazelle, since Gazelle is really the head turner in our group and she is so beautiful with her gimik outfit....then Mark(the name of the guy) ask me a lot...if i usually go to that place?..whom im with?..where im from??...etc,..etc...thanks to Chris because he did not leave me when Pam and Gaze are tired in dancing... I want to go with them but Mark ask me if i could stay more and since im being nice to a new found friend i stay a while...well kinda nervous because its my first time to dance in a dance floor and the same time first time dancing with strangers...i really thank Chris coz he dont leave me in the dance floor...then in a few minutes i go back to our table even mark insist me to stay..he ask for my cel no but i dont gave it to him he is totally a stranger and you couldn't find a real friend in that kind of place...so i decided not to give my number to anyone else from that place...

well, that's my first encounter...the second one is the second time we go to that dance floor again...hahahahaha...now with Dianne and Tupe...but since Tupe didn't enjoy the crowd he go back to our table and have their own showdown with the girls besides our table....well, Paulo and Tupe have a great time with them...we thought they are bored in our table but they are not...because they were teased and seduced by the girls..hahahahhaha... iba talaga ang charm nila Tupe and Paulo...whahahahaha...while we are enjoying the music at the dance floor...someone ask me again to dance with him....hay!!! grabe ah haba ng hair ko..bulag siguro tong mga toh..di nga ako marunog sumayaw...ang kulit!!!..mas grabe toh... he is inviting me to dance at the ledge...hello...whats in me???di nga ako marunong sumayaw...so i told him "NO!!!di ako marunong sumayaw eh"...he still insist...he said "lets try please"...but still "no! thanks!" then he introduce his self to me... i forgot his name if Joey or Joel...whatever!!!!then while dancing he talk something about himself and asking me the same thing that i encounter in the first stranger i met...asking a lot of things about me...hay... then he offer me a drink...but i answered..."no thanks!!!!"...dont trust anyone in that kind of place... because its so crowded Gazelle get tired..she invited us to go back in the table...that's why i also go with them and leave the stranger alone eventhough he insist...hahahahaha.... then the group teased me especially Chris..."Grabe ang benta mo ngayong gabi ah...hahahahaha"...si Gazelle naman sabi.."Haba ng hair mo jack ah...hahahahaha"...well i just said "well sa dilim lang yata tumatalab ang beauty ko...hahahaha at ska baka beginners luck lang yun..." then Gazelle said "pano magiging beginners luck alam ba nila na first time mo...hahahahahaha"...well whatever it is ganun lang talaga...medyo marami lang akong nabulag that night...hahahahaha... haba ng hair ko..whahahaha...

then after common ground club we go at club indios just a few block away from cgc....well, a nice place for chillaxin..since they play accoustic songs...we stay in that place till 430am with Pam, Paulo, Dianne and Chris...and sabay sabay na kmi umuwi since isang way lang kami pauwi.... Pam stayed in my place..and almost 6am when we get our sleep because nagka-chikahan pa kami in some stuff...like checking in something in friendster...hahahahahaha

this is a totall gimik day from Norman's wedding to malate gimik...grabe ang saya...i really have fun with Jolly, Eric, Chris, Tupe, Dianne, Paulo, Gazelle and Pam... sana maulit uli ang gimik namin... can't wait to have another gimik with them....

Norman's big day....

i woke up early just to prepare in attending this wedding... first, i need to clean my house since saturday is my cleaning day of my home...then of course i also need to prepare for myself... well this is the hard thing for me when i'm attending an occasion that needs to be in formal attire... hard for me to choose what to wear...dress and shoes that can make me comfortable.. since im not used to wear formal clothes especially, wearing a sandals with a high heels but what can i do since only high heels sandals can fit well with a formal dress...

that's why i conclude "ang hirap magpakakababae..."..im having a hard time in fixing myself..doing make up, fixing your hair, walking with a poise and sitting conservatively... well, everytime i need to do that how i wish im a guy...kasi mas madaling magbihis kapag lalaki ka...hay!!! ang hirap talaga...that's why i admire those girls who did that everyday...(doing make up and fixing their hair before they go to school or office...)..wow talaga sila...

i really, really really admire this wedding of Norman and Lot...its so well prepared and they are the one totally hands on in this occasion from wedding prepation to souvineers are handfully made by Lot and Norman...that makes this occasion "a wedding from heaven"... i'm so proud to Norman...i can see in him how much he loves Lot and the confession he made that Lot is his first and the last girlfriend he had...wow!!!

what makes this wedding significant to others is the songs that the wedding singer sang in the reception...wow!!! totally awesome and cool...okay din yung band that they hire...Oldschool is the name of the band who did acapella and make their voices as the instruments...wow galing talaga!!! and imagine pa yung mga kinanta nila mga rock songs na fave nila Norman like guns 'n roses and evanessense songs... grabe galing talaga!!! then its nice to see the memories they share together...there's a projector in the reception then they present the baby pictures of Norman and Lot and the pictures they have in 7 years of relationship being boyfriend and girlfriend...

For you Norman and Lot...Best wishes!!! May God continue to bless your relationship and sana tumagal kayo forever...

great smiles with the newly wed....



partner-partner na pa-cute...whhaahahaha


the girls....


the boys...

it's just like another boring day here at work...nothing to write about...

in love....

did you know how it feels being in love not in a particular person but only in the feeling of being in love????well medyo magulo but i'm encountering it now...maybe i gained that feeling because of watching romantic films and watching t.v....

the good thing is that i realized that im just in love in the feeling of being in love but not in a specific person at least im sure to myself that im not longing for someone or wanting someone to just to be filled the place that is missing...

this feeling makes me amazed to myself that makes me to be inspired to do the thing i need to do this day...in short i'm happy...its so nice to be happy..shalala...everybody should be happy...shalala

Finding the right person.....

it used to be applicable to me...and now i learned a lot from it...always put on your mind..."God is preparing somebody for you"...and your waiting will be worthwhile...

Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong...

it is best to be the right person for the one you loveand start from there...

you'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a "right person" for you...and don't rush things coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you.

"Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you arealready into it. Try to find time to really understandyour real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship. You're right, there's no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there's acompatible partnership that goes along with it.

If you already knew that you're too big to fit into a smallsized t-shirt, don't give it a try. You'll probablybreak it and pay for the damages you have made.

If you knew and felt that the relationship will notlast, don't go deeper into it. You'll just suffer theconsequences and live like hell for the rest of yourlife.

It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings.

Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest.

Give yourself achance to grow and give your heart a much neededattention.

Then you will find that you have made theright decision and you made it all by yourself.We call it love when we can't leave someone and seet hem crying as we try to let go.

We are wrong, it'sjust pity.

We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life.

We misunderstood,its just that we're too much dependent to them.

We call it love when we give our whole life to them,the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave,no one would accept us and our past.

We are mistaken,its just insecurity.

But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy or beg.

It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart.

You can't find it, but itwill knock before you when you least expect it tocome.

It can make you the happiest soul in heaven,but don't forget that it can also make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy...

100 days

this story touches my heart so much.....

Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing,but just gazing into the sky, while all their friendsare having fun with their beloved half.
Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend nowto spend time with.
Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're theonly person who isn't with a date now. (both sigh nsilence for a while)
Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a gamePeter: Eh? What game?
Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days.what do you think?
Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for thenext few months.
Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to itat all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and ourfirst date. Where should we go?
Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is areally great movie in theater now.
Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea thanthis. Lets move. (went to watch their movies and senteach other home)
Day 2:Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peterbought Tina a keychain with a star.
Day 3:They went shopping together for a friend's birthdaypresent. Share an ice-cream together and hugged eachother for the first time.
Day 7:Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch thesunset together. When the night came and the moonglowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the starstogether. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something.
Day 25:Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters,and ate hotdogs and cotton candy.Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and Tinagrabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand byaccident. They laughed together for a while.
Day 67:They drove pass a circus and decided to get in towatch the show. The midget asked Tina to play a partas his assistant in the magic show. Went around to seeother entertainments around after the show. Came to afortune teller and she just said "Treasure everymoment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortuneteller's cheek.
Day 84:Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The beachwasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kisswith each other just as the sun is setting.
Day 99:They decided to have a simple day and is deciding tohave a walk around the city. They sits down onto abench.
1:23 pmTina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.
Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks.What would you like?
Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine.
1:43 pmTina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter haventreturn. Then someone walked up to her.
Stranger: Is your name Tina?
Tina: Yes, and may I help you?
Stranger: Just now down there on the street a drunkdriver has crashed into a guy. I think its yourfriend.
Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and seesPeter lying on the floor with blood over his face andher apple juice still in his hands. The ambulance cameand she went to the hospital with Peter.Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and ahalf hours. The doctor came out, and he sigh.
11:51 pmDoctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could.He is still breathing now but God would take him awayfrom us very soon. We found this letter inside hispocket.
The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goesinto the room to see Peter. He look weak but peaceful.Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears.Here is what the letter said.
Tina, our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with youduring all these days. Although you may be greedysometimes and less thoughtful, but these all broughthappiness into my life. I have realize that you are areally cute girl and blamed myself for never taken thetime to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for,but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want tobe your boyfriend forever and wish that you can bebeside me all the time. Tina, I love you.
11:58Tina: (sobbing) Peter. Did you know what was the wishI made on the night there was a meteor. I asked God tolet us last forever. We were suppose to last 100 daysso Peter! You can't leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can youcome back to me now? I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU.
As the clock struck twelve, Peter's heart stoppedbeating. It was 100 days.
Send this to EVERYONE you love or hate...just Everyonethat has taken a part in your life. Tell the guy orgirl that you love them before its too late. You neverknow whats going to happen tomorrow. You never knowwho will be leaving you and never return.
"The heart has its reasons which reason cannot know"

boring weekdays...

its been a week that i dont have work to do here in my place.. I just watch movie, surfing the net, chatting and taking CBT at skillport...while my mbs groupmates are playing card like tongits, ungoy-unguyan and any games that they can play in cards...and they also play sharades...which makes me insane of hearing their load voices..

It makes me more comfortable in my place, now that i am tranferred here in my new place which is near in the window and far from anyone...

Last Wednesday, we met Norman's future wife...we(my batchmates!) have our dinner at krokodile grille in Greenbelt 3(the same place where we have our first lunch out together..).. Norman introduce his future wife to us for the preparation of their wedding para kilala na namin ang wife nya before the wedding on Oct.9... Meeting Lot(Norman's wife) gave our group an idea about how hard to prepare for a wedding and the same time much will a wedding will cost.

hmmmm.....ako kaya kailan ikakasal..hehehehe...asa pa???bf nga wala eh...bata pa naman me eh enjoy muna being single saka na lang pagsawa na...hmmm...ano ba ideal age ko para magpakasal???wala basta darating na lang yun at kung handa na ako...