I miss my Mom.........

After work, me and pam watch''Now that I have you...".. jologs ko noh..hehehehe.. matagal na talaga akong jologs...whahahaha.. well that movie seems to be a comedy movie kasi di ako kinilig at nainlove sa love story nila...but I've learned a lot in that movie..I see myself like Bea in the story who is immature gf, makulit and masyadong idealistic...and take note i cried in this story 'coz I miss my Mom. There's a scene there when Bea is broken hearted then her Mom just came home just to comfort her...Wow, that scene melts my heart...I remember my Mom siguro kung buhay pa Mommy ko she will also comforts me like that when I'm broken hearted...

I really miss my Mom.... Sana she is here para sa aming magkakapatid... Siguro if my Mom is still alive di ako ganito ibang Jack siguro ako.... maybe the other side of Jack ngayon....maybe I will be like my Mom na mataray at matapang. Like Mom who is fashionista at pala ayos... Always nasa uso... And siguro kung ang Mom ko buhay pa siguro may asawa na ako at my age....hahahahaha

I remember when I was only grade 3 she is always asking me kung may crush na ako...hello...at grade 3 im only 8 yrs old...kaya nga I ask her ano yung crush mommy..then she explain it to me.. then she gave me a slumbook then i ask her para saan yun... sabi nya pa autograph ko daw sa mga classmates ko...hahahahaha....grabe ano ba malay ng mga classmates ko dun wala pa sa isip nila yun noh even me...kaya di ko dinala sa school yun baka pagtawanan ako ng classmates ko...

Then I still remember nung malapit na akong mag-celebrate ng 9th birthday ko she told me kung anong age ako magcecelebrate ng ingrande.... Like ng 1st birthday ko ingrade daw yun nakita ko naman daw sa mga baby pictures ko eh then yung 7th brithday ko which is ingrande nga kasi i have my childrens party sa bahay with classmates and playmates...then sabi nya ang susunod kong birthday party kapag nag 13th birthday ako kasi teen na daw ako and dalaga na... then next is my 16th birthday because sweet 16 na daw she said that I'm going to have my 16 roses with suitors and my last dance will be my crush... and the last is my debut she wants it to be fabulous celebration with my family and friends..and sabi nya yung last dance ko will be my boyfriend.... Well that's my moms dream for my birthday but with her death is also the death of my birthday celebration...(ouch!) to think that after my birthday is also her death... whaaaaaaaa ='< that's my mom she suffers a lot just to wait to celebrate my 10th birthday with her before she pass away..

I dont know kung paano ko nalampasan ang life without a mother...but I tell you guyz ang hirap ng walang Mommy besides you...kaya kayo just treasure your Mom hanggang andyan pa sila sa tabi nyo...You'll never know kung kailan sila kukunin ni Lord...kahit ako di ko akalain na in my young age mawawalan ako ng mommy..i thought sa tv lang napapanood yun.....