Broken Helmet????

I start my day by checking my mail. All of a sudden, I curiously open the sent item folder to delete all the stuff there but suprisingly my email to my ex when we celebrate our aniv is still there so I open it and read it again..As I read it dun ko napatunayan na ang tibay pala ng helmet na pinatong ng ex ko sa akin..hahahahaha... masyado akong nabulag sa love ko sa kanya... That's why I decided to put in my ym stat --> broken helmet at last!!!!.... Thinking that I'm already get over him.

But I dont know why parang sinusubukan talaga ako ng pagkakataon...because the ex reacted in my ym he ask me this...."bkit may bf ka na bang bago???"eto naman ako si engot I answered "wala"...which is wala naman talaga then I said "ayoko muna magkabf ulit sakit lang ng ulo yun.".. then to make the story short yung pag chat namin is nauwi sa pagsundo sa akin..which is last week nya pa akong kinukulit..

I know there's something he wants to know to himself.... masyado yata napaaga ang aking wish..akala ko it will takes years para mangyari ang sitwasyon na yun... but now I prove to myself na di nya talaga akong kayang kalimutan...It's early to say that I won in this battle...but at least I know to myself that I can now live without him eventhough I know to myself that I still love him... I know that there's something that he wants to say but he can't...

I think he wants to prove something to himself thats why he's doing it....The same time I challenge myself for that, hoping that I will going to win this battle.... I may not know if I won this battle but the only thing I know to myself is that I'm proud that I have my first step moving on my life without him...I know God will heal all the hurt and difficulties I encountered... and time will let it forget....