I miss my Mom.........

After work, me and pam watch''Now that I have you...".. jologs ko noh..hehehehe.. matagal na talaga akong jologs...whahahaha.. well that movie seems to be a comedy movie kasi di ako kinilig at nainlove sa love story nila...but I've learned a lot in that movie..I see myself like Bea in the story who is immature gf, makulit and masyadong idealistic...and take note i cried in this story 'coz I miss my Mom. There's a scene there when Bea is broken hearted then her Mom just came home just to comfort her...Wow, that scene melts my heart...I remember my Mom siguro kung buhay pa Mommy ko she will also comforts me like that when I'm broken hearted...

I really miss my Mom.... Sana she is here para sa aming magkakapatid... Siguro if my Mom is still alive di ako ganito ibang Jack siguro ako.... maybe the other side of Jack ngayon....maybe I will be like my Mom na mataray at matapang. Like Mom who is fashionista at pala ayos... Always nasa uso... And siguro kung ang Mom ko buhay pa siguro may asawa na ako at my age....hahahahaha

I remember when I was only grade 3 she is always asking me kung may crush na ako...hello...at grade 3 im only 8 yrs old...kaya nga I ask her ano yung crush mommy..then she explain it to me.. then she gave me a slumbook then i ask her para saan yun... sabi nya pa autograph ko daw sa mga classmates ko...hahahahaha....grabe ano ba malay ng mga classmates ko dun wala pa sa isip nila yun noh even me...kaya di ko dinala sa school yun baka pagtawanan ako ng classmates ko...

Then I still remember nung malapit na akong mag-celebrate ng 9th birthday ko she told me kung anong age ako magcecelebrate ng ingrande.... Like ng 1st birthday ko ingrade daw yun nakita ko naman daw sa mga baby pictures ko eh then yung 7th brithday ko which is ingrande nga kasi i have my childrens party sa bahay with classmates and playmates...then sabi nya ang susunod kong birthday party kapag nag 13th birthday ako kasi teen na daw ako and dalaga na... then next is my 16th birthday because sweet 16 na daw she said that I'm going to have my 16 roses with suitors and my last dance will be my crush... and the last is my debut she wants it to be fabulous celebration with my family and friends..and sabi nya yung last dance ko will be my boyfriend.... Well that's my moms dream for my birthday but with her death is also the death of my birthday celebration...(ouch!) to think that after my birthday is also her death... whaaaaaaaa ='< that's my mom she suffers a lot just to wait to celebrate my 10th birthday with her before she pass away..

I dont know kung paano ko nalampasan ang life without a mother...but I tell you guyz ang hirap ng walang Mommy besides you...kaya kayo just treasure your Mom hanggang andyan pa sila sa tabi nyo...You'll never know kung kailan sila kukunin ni Lord...kahit ako di ko akalain na in my young age mawawalan ako ng mommy..i thought sa tv lang napapanood yun.....

Gym

My first day in gym... kakapagod but enjoy...

Broken Helmet????

I start my day by checking my mail. All of a sudden, I curiously open the sent item folder to delete all the stuff there but suprisingly my email to my ex when we celebrate our aniv is still there so I open it and read it again..As I read it dun ko napatunayan na ang tibay pala ng helmet na pinatong ng ex ko sa akin..hahahahaha... masyado akong nabulag sa love ko sa kanya... That's why I decided to put in my ym stat --> broken helmet at last!!!!.... Thinking that I'm already get over him.

But I dont know why parang sinusubukan talaga ako ng pagkakataon...because the ex reacted in my ym he ask me this...."bkit may bf ka na bang bago???"eto naman ako si engot I answered "wala"...which is wala naman talaga then I said "ayoko muna magkabf ulit sakit lang ng ulo yun.".. then to make the story short yung pag chat namin is nauwi sa pagsundo sa akin..which is last week nya pa akong kinukulit..

I know there's something he wants to know to himself.... masyado yata napaaga ang aking wish..akala ko it will takes years para mangyari ang sitwasyon na yun... but now I prove to myself na di nya talaga akong kayang kalimutan...It's early to say that I won in this battle...but at least I know to myself that I can now live without him eventhough I know to myself that I still love him... I know that there's something that he wants to say but he can't...

I think he wants to prove something to himself thats why he's doing it....The same time I challenge myself for that, hoping that I will going to win this battle.... I may not know if I won this battle but the only thing I know to myself is that I'm proud that I have my first step moving on my life without him...I know God will heal all the hurt and difficulties I encountered... and time will let it forget....

Remembering my high school friends with our song...

This is one of my favorite song when I was in high school... My barkada's theme song.... the "Sisterhood"...I miss Cathy M. ,Louella, Sherryll, Ria and Cathy D. .... kailan kaya ulit kami makukumpleto...
I just want to share this song to my friends.... this is an inspiring song...wherever you may go our friendship will always be in my heart..
Friends
by Michael W. Smith

Packing up the dreams
God planted
In the fertile soil of you
I Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong
(CHORUS)
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "never"
Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long to live as friends.
With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong
(CHORUS)

Inspiring concert - I'm very Thankful

Pam invites me to watch Gary v.'s concert nung once nanood kami ng Southborder mini concert in Red Door bar in Pasig.. Nung una nagdalawang isip pa me kasi mahal ng ticket na gusto nya..but when i see the theme ng concert in a tv show.. I said to myself na manood na ako kahit mahal ang ticket because yung theme is "Thankful" and I've heard that most of the songs are worship and Christian songs ni Gary V....

Well, di nga me nagkamali... most of the songs are very inspiring...and most of the songs are my favorite Christian songs when I was in high school... Reminiscing my high school life lalo na ng kinanta nya yung "Friends" yun ang theme song naming magbabarkada...Gulat nga si Pam ng marinig nya akong sumasabay kumanta, halos alam ko lahat yung mga kinakanta na Christian songs...Tanong nya alam mo yan..Sabi ko "oo alam mo ba nung high school ako yan ang mga music ko....hahahahha" di sya maniwala....

To tell you honestly masyado akong na-inspire sa mga songs parang feeling ko nasa heaven ako and I'm wanting to go back in my simple Christian life like when I was in high school pero I dont know where to start again...Reminiscing my life when I was so committed and eager to convert my religion to born again Christian...That was the time na lagi akong napapagalitan ako ng dad ko at pinaghihinalaan ako kung saan saan ako pumupunta pag Sunday or after class...pag sinasabi ko galing ako sa church ayaw nya maniwala dahil bakit daw ang tagal ko eh 1hr lang naman ang simba sa catholic...pero ang di nya alam I go with my friend sa JIL(Jesus is Lord) Church nila....at minsan pag after class i go for Bible studies with my friends...I miss singing praises, worhip and Christian songs...

Buttomline, I really enjoy the concert It starts with praises for our Lord then the best songs of Gary V. then it also ended in praising and worshiping our Lord....Mas nag enjoy pa nga yata ako kaysa kay Pam....Thanks Pam sa pagyaya sa akin....It inspire me so much... Lalo na sa qoute na toh from Gary V. ...."If someone hurts you or borke your heart...dont tell yourself that time will heal you but rather tell yourself God will heal your wounds..."

First Sunday

1st Sunday of the Month....I go to church with my brother at Pinaglabanan Church...

Tutuban day!!!!

Not an ordinary Saturday.... Because this day kasama ko mga officemates ko sa Headstrong for a different gimik not the usual gimik we have.... Morning palang nagkita na kami nila Pam and Shirley sa Medicard for our employment requirements then we go to Binondo.... Shirley tour us in Binondo..namili kami ng hopia and pumunta kami sa chinese grocery....We go to Tasty Restaurant sarap talaga ng breaded porkchop nila...Dun na kmi nagmeet nila Jolly, Chris and Gazelle...Pam and Gazelle enjoy the soya milk in tasty...

Buti nalang they enjoy the lunch at nagpakabusog talaga sila...because our next destination is Tutuban...from one building to cluster to tutuban mall..grabe nakakapagod pero enjoy..... Okay ngang kasama si Jolly and Shirley when you are going to shop in tutuban kasi galing nila tumawad sa kapwa nila chinese...Kaya nga natuwa si Gazelle ng mabili nya yung skirt na gusto nya na mura lang...

I have fun shopping in tutuban with my friends...At mas enjoy ako kasi nagenjoy din sila at lalo na si Gazelle because first time nya na makapunta dun sa Divisoria...I just want her to feel kung pano mag shopping in that kind of place... kasi medyo may pagka conio si Gazelle but cowboy naman...

While shopping in tutuban namiss ko ang ABSI friends ko kasi tagal na namin plano na magshopping sa tutuban pero hindi natutuloy.... pero sana matuloy din kami kasi miss ko na sila...